Another month, another opportunity to share what I’m insecure about. (such a looonngg list ;))I know you must be thinking: wait, wasn’t there a couple of months skipped?
Yes, I was most definitely out of the loop for a while, but our Captain, Alex Cavanaugh, has graciously allowed me to rejoin, and I couldn’t be more excited. And the timing, well, it’s perfect.
My insecurity surrounds the full revision I’m in the middle of. If you remember back several months ago, I was anticipating getting to the end of my manuscript, excited about getting to begin a new project. Unfortunately, as I got to the end, I realized that it needed so much more. Mostly due to the great reviews from my CPs, I became aware of the need to clarify the characters’ motivations. And in that moment of clarity, I decided to rewrite the book.
Agh, gasp, groan…right? Well, yes and no. It’s painful and oy vey, it’s slow, but I have to admit that it’s better. It’s closer to something I’d be willing to read, and that’s the first time I can say that, and something I’d be willing to submit to agents. Blood and sweat outline the edge of every page, but in a good way. 🙂
Here’s where the insecurity comes in: because even though it’s closer, it’s still not exactly what I envisioned. I’m sniffing around the edges of the characters, plot, and dialogue that are in my head, but I haven’t quite reeled them all in yet. I’m worried that they’ll never exactly match my vision.
Does anyone else feel this way about their WIPs?
Or is it just me? 😛
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